As I'm sitting here and typing I'm actually curious as to what the he%$ I'm doing. I really can't put my finger on tomorrow because it's becoming more and more like a blur to me. Maybe it's because I'm away from my family so long or that I've never been with so much "free time" before. What ever it is I've never felt so beside myself like this and it freaks me out. D always says "don't worry about Manny it'll work it's self out”. Those words, oh those word "Don't worry about it" burn my ears. I understand that some things you can't control and worrying is an empty way to use your time but I act instinctual and sometimes I feel that if I don’t worry then who will. The funny thing is that I totally agree with him, come on you don't spend 28 years with that many sisters and learn how NOT to worry. Ok, ok I do have a confession, though it chills me to the bone to say this but could it be the reason I get so discouraged by those words is because ultimately I know that not worrying is in fact the only solution. (As I laugh in my head) Why is it that we feel more comfortable "not worrying" when we decide it's OK "not to worry"?
The free time can freak someone out... and so can the sister's... I say you know yourself more then anyone on this planet, go with your gutt and always know things will work out... Where there's a will there's a way.... :) Love ya...
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