FACING THE REAL ME

We go through life with a constant need for acceptance and a yearning for approval, not just for our actions but also for who we are or who we think we are.

Have you ever just wonder where did these "who we are" traits come from, when did they become what defines us as individuals and did we in fact have any control over them?

Listen, if we are suppose to be products of our environment and influenced by those closest to us. Technically we had no control over the development of these "who we are" traits that originated from when we were in the "development state of our minds" influenced by those closest to us? In that case have we spent our entire lives searching for approval on personality and behavioral traits that technically aren't organic to whom we are as individuals?

THINK THINK THINK….

When we get to a curtain age I believe it is important to spend a great deal of time with our thoughts so we can better decipher the difference between WHO WE ARE from who we were told to be. This will allow you and me to be honest with the world and us. I’m curtain if approval is what we seek then we should at least be getting it based on traits that actually belong to us..

I'm positive, I'm not negative.

It's practically impossible to deny the power that the positive flow of energy has on every aspect of life. You know how it's said "if you believe in something it makes it possible", well does that same concept apply to negativity? If the universe consist of both negative points and positive points allowing for the existence of balance, can it be that energy, magic, witchcraft, ghost and so-on exist whether we believe in them or not? I'm wondering this because if all it takes is for us to simply believe in something for it to truly exist then it is a fact that we assist in creating the success and destruction of not only ourselves but also the people whose lives we may impact. Remember to ask yourself this one question: How does my energy, positive or negative, impact the one's in my life?

The Memitim apprentice

It's been over 2 months sense my last blog entry.

A lot has happened sense then, I've started two new projects. first project is Titled The Memitim Apprentice and it's a project that I'm really proud of, I've been working with a great photographer and creative mind named Trent Harris who came up with the initial concept for the project. With the efforts of his partner Chris, Trent and I have been able to get a good run at The Memitim Apprentice and will be showcasing it in March 2012 in Orlando at the Megacon convention. The second project is TOP SECRET but what I can tell you is it will create a buzz and pave the way for an amazing future project that I'm so proud to be part of.. look for it on YOUTUBE.com. Well that's the awesomeness that has been going on so far and I will give you all an update as they come in. until then follow me on Facebook and twitter for instant updates on the projects and what's next. Take care.

Manuel "Jemini" Caride

Do I impact you?

Some days I spend a great deal of my time trying to understand how can I, little old me, effect the world, am I able to make an impact on my own.

Then it hits me we all have an effect on this world we live in, no if, ands or buts about it. Sometimes these things are hard to remember when you're standing next to the Grand Canyon or looking into the starry night sky and realize we're just a floating object in this vast universe.

I understand changing the ultimate outcome will take the will of the majority but getting things started only take one person. So no matter how small you may feel in this life, no matter how much you think you have no voice; always remember that everything you do in your life, every choice you make and every decision you decide impacts every living thing on this planet one way or the other.

Try to remember that for the next time you decide to doubt your self worth or question your purpose, because without you or without me the world wouldn't be what it is today.

THERE IS ONLY ONE

Have we wandered far from the place we once called home?

If it’s real they’ll write the rules, change the truth, then let us know.

Stand up for what we believe in

because who am I and who are you is the ultimate re-writing truth.

Do we belong to mother earth or a divine being we once called to?

A struggle to claim what was never lost has created this division that separates and betrays us all.

Recapture the only thing we can, ourselves and the purpose for which we stand.

Because there is only one, only one, there’s only one.

This confusion of what we own has caused pain that is incomprehensible.

Devoid of reality we wonder with no reason why like all others were we programmed to fight or life has no meaning?

I’m sitting here waiting for the change to occur this song is my contribution to the awaking of a new birth.

Because there is only one, only one, there’s only one.

Life cannot flourish if we ignore the cause to become a one race without the ignorance we’ve caused.

Lead the fight against this deadly disease because if WE don’t change then the law of evolution will cease to succeed.

"We the people" have the original choice so do not be fooled to believe that "we the people" don’t have a voice.

Because there is only one, only one, there’s only one.

Forgive us if we’ve “sinned” for we know not what we do?

Forgive us if we don’t put the fate of our humanity up to you.

We are one part of a divine creation both spiritually and physically designed for greatness.

2012 is not a day of ends but more of a time to recapture our abilities to heal and mend.

The truth is the missing link in what we stand for So question until there’s an answer and all answers will come forth.

Accept this opportunity to rise above the programmed past and educate ourselves to question the future of this one race.

Because there’s only one, only one, there has always been only one.

KARMA-OH YOU FUNNY BASTARD!

Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

The unavoidable Karma, let's get REAL. so if the universe is designed to mimic our actions (The Secret) be them positive or negative and we constantly perceive and respond in a negative manner the universe will in-turn have results that are NEGATIVE? YES!!

The truth is very simple, if you think your life is in a train wreck status or things are just not working according to your "master plan" it's time to turn the mirror back on yourself and change that shit (Pardon my language). You can change your whole life by changing your perspective on it and transforming that negative mill of constant shitty thoughts into something worth coming home to trust me you'll be surprised at the difference.

PEOPLE!!! The universe is like a baby it responds to your actions so like a baby it shouldn't be taught bad behaviors. The universe only feels positive and negative vibes just like you and I with NO ROOM for the in-between, sorry. So What the hell is your KARMA telling you?

Behind the curtain

I am well informed and aware of the 2012 prophecies and how they will unfold. My mind goes from the sun exploding, the collision of the dwarf star "Nibiru" or the governments ultimate plan to create a one world government under one rule. But I just watch an amazing upload on Youtube and although these theories above were stated and presented with great detail the video ended with a very interesting point. Is 2012 just the beginning of a new age of enlightenment and spiritual awakening? I do believe that we have wandered far from the true potential of humanity. We have an amazing ability to change the world and understand the meaning of who we are, yet we consume ourselves with our 5 senses to understand what is real to US in OUR life. Maybe 2012 offers a time for us all to use the rest of the brain that has been left dormant for centuries an truly feel. If 2012 does in fact mark the age of when we as a race will have the ability to respect and appreciate the existence of one another then to get there we must start with today. Reach into your inner person and allow yourself to be free from the hate of the world, only then can you truly be ready to begin. Is this really worth it and have we been magic mirrored?

All Sides of Jemini: Invitation into a new day, always allow change.

All Sides of Jemini: Invitation into a new day, always allow change.: "Invitation into a new day, always allow change. Here it goes again. The wind chan..."

What's the thing about LOve?

What's the thing about LOve?

Sometimes I sit here and write for hours trying to come up with the best way to interpret my thoughts and feelings. I build the story line, create the conclusions and then hit delete. I’m writing an insert about what I think LOve is from my perspective. LOve if studied with an open minded perspective is the center of the human soul like what the sun is to our galaxy. LOve ignites every living organism and gives life to our dreams, hopes and our power. Without LOve then we have nothing and although first hand I am expierencing true LOve it still becomes hard to place. Maybe LOve has found a way to make it’s self indescribable because it is in fact the combination of every human emotion, like what white is to color, and once we have discovered this then we are truly worthy of it.

I know there are many people who believe that the LOve we have for a parent, child or pet is a different then the LOve we have for our partners and I can see how that conclusion can be drawn. However I believe that LOve is LOve and no matter who or what we give it to LOve will always have the same purpose. Adding other elements to LOve like sex, desire, yearning and/or lust will change the interpretation but never the purpose. So with that being said I do believe LOve is the universal language and it can create the darkness or the light. LOve can unite a race and open the door for true spiritual awakening. The question is LOve and what it means to you?

What came first THE SEX OR THE LOVE?

What came first THE SEX OR THE LOVE?

Studies show me that SEX is an animal erge or instinct and that LOVE is an emotion that can’t truly be explained with words. So when someone tells me that there having issue in there relationship because of SEX then I can confidently say that LOVE may have taking a vacation. SEX can play a fun role in our LOVE lives but never can it play a major role. It always makes me wonder, are you really in LOVE or has LOVE taking a siesta? Let's wake it up. I would say I’m a pretty passionate person and I truly enjoy the heck out of SEX but in my personal research and first hand expierence (no pun) I can say that SEX is just SEX and something that has absolutely no ties to LOVE should never dictate how we enjoy our partners in any way.

We live in a very experimental society now and it’s becoming more and more acceptable to be sexually curious some would even say it’s healthy, I absolutely agree. However do not be confused by this, I believe that it’s not a healthy SEX life that makes a good relationship I believe it’s a healthy relationship that makes a good relationship. Honesty in any relationship will carry 100% more weight then SEX and I will stand by the statement front and center. Again I'm a very passionate person and I lust, desire and love the one I'm with simultaneously without conditions but it’s important to understand the difference and not to confuse lust, SEX or desire with LOVE. Enjoy all that life has to offer, being human is endless. Being open about your levels of SEX can lead to a lifetime of LOVE. And I ask you what came first THE SEX OR THE LOVE?

Ignorance is no longer an excuse

Ignorance is no longer an excuse

OK so it has come to this. 2012 the ultimate DOOMSDAY, the revolution, the beginning of a new age,it goes on and on and on…I have such faith in humanity, a faith that can’t be described in words the kind of faith you give to that of..um I don’t know, a “GOD”.

I have been beating my brain, killing my laptop battery and simply driving my fingers to rawness doing research and listening to everyone’s perspective on what we have to look toward in 2012. because of the passion people have for it whether positive or negative passion exist.

I’ve listen to statements, testimonials, scientist, theorist, and naysayers. Here are a few “The world will be engulfed by fire and lava”, “Planet X will collide and destroy the earth”, “the sun “sol” will release a massive solar storm, knocking out grids for years to come sending us into the dark age” “Nibiru will return and reclaim us as there hybrids” the list goes on for a while.

As a writer and a Gemini I can’t help but observe every theory as someone’s own possibility of the events whether it has actual evidence or not. Because I would rather hear what you have to say then not hear anything at all. Because of my faith for humanity I believe we have the capability of reaching beyond comprehension and bending the laws that bind us, the laws we untimely create to establish the ultimate and allow everyone to be one.

Stop hiding behind ignorance and the fact that you don’t want to get involved because you were born involved. If you don’t demand the best you’ll NEVER earn the respect you’re entitled to.

I touch on such an intense topic because of the passion it holds in people no matter positive or negative, there's passion. What's your voice saying?

OWN UP TO YOUR SHIT. NO ONE WILL COMPLETE YOU. SO STOP WAITING

OWN UP TO YOUR SHIT. NO ONE WILL COMPLETE YOU. SO STOP WAITING

Why is it that when someone says to us “I want you to CHANGE, I think you’re an IDIOT" or they simply question our motives we automatically associate this with a negative charge?

Here’s what I’ve learned. I’ve come across an amazing book called “The dark side of the light chaser” by Debbie Ford (Look it up). In this book it breaks down what I’ve come to know as the simple principles to reality, well my reality anyways. Basically what this means is how to truly become whole and to settle for nothing less then our whole selves. Part of the reason I mentioned this book was because it amazes me what we can learn from one another if we truly just LISTEN.

It’s time to wake up and realized that something is telling us to SHUT UP and pay attention. The reason why words like IDIOT, BITCH, PUNK, FAG, SLUT etc. offend us more then others is because we need to own, love and respect the IDIOT, BITCH, PUNK, FAG, SLUT within us and honey we all have them so find there gifts…Without negative there would be no positive. SO once you own up to that shit you’ve shoved in the back of that “I’m never going to love this part of me” section in your subconscious you can truly become what is know as being whole.

We need to understand that people do not come in our lives by accident, beside for our entertainment they are here to teach us about who we are by reflecting back to us the “REAL YOU”. Blaming someone else for your own issue is getting old so next time just thank them for opening your eyes and allowing you to see clearly. Just my suggestion.

My RUBBER-BAND theory

My RUBBER-BAND theory

Sometimes when we get lost inside our lives we stray away from our true self and feel the feeling of "out of place, something’s wrong". My theory when talking to people has always been called my rubber-band theory on instinct. What this basically means is that no matter how far we stray off our paths and no matter where life may take us it will always be our instincts that snaps us back on track ergo my rubber-band theory.

Our Instinct is that voice, that loud screaming; never shouting up voice in our heads telling us something’s off track. You don’t know what it is at first and we always question whether to listen or not. The good thing about instinct is that no matter what we decide to do whether to listen or ignore it will still work just as hard to remind us something’s not right.

We only have one job in this process and that is to listen if you really silence the screaming of society and the pressures of things around you and just listen for a millisecond you'll hear it way in the back. It's not a quiet sound and it never takes a break, sometimes it's muffled or far away that just means it's been buried for so long just waiting for you to do your part and just listen. We spend our whole lives hearing and receiving the advise of everyone.

So why when it comes to our selves is it always a question of should I or should I not?

To whom this may concern

To Whom It May Concern:

My name is Manny I am 28 years old and going on 29. I have 15 brothers and sisters and a very large family along with them. Peoples first question to me after knowing how many brothers and sister I have is "are you all close?" and regardless how far apart we are and how long it's been cense we've spoken I always respond "yes, of course".

Ok I now understand why that's always my response. It's because growing up in my family we were always indirectly taught that some things are the way they are simply because they are and everything doesn’t have a rhyme or reason. I bring this up because the same goes for touchy topics like Religion, politics or sexuality. In my family we didn't sit around the table and discuss our POV on religion or politics or even if we thought the apocalypse is near. This wasn't because we had no interest or opinion on the matters it was because what doesn’t kill us only brings us closer. And to me relationships will always come top priority.

I don't sit here today asking you to avoid having a conversation about things that may or may not be important to you, I sit here and ask you to truly understand the worth of people before you build walls that will ultimately seperate them. Why do we place so much emotional efforts to get our point across when these topics are discussed more then others?

Yours truly,

Manuel “Jemini” Caride

The poor me syndrome

We spend more time dwelling on the maybes and the "hopefullies" stuck in the "poor me".

It's amazing how strong a feeling can be. It can make you feel like the most powerful person alive, as if no body can stand in your way. A feeling can give you confidence beyond imagination why all the while turn right around and force you against yourself. A feeling can make you feel powerless to it's manipulation. I sit here today with an open mind to creating ones own opinion to how feelings control us and why. But....I offer you just one piece of advice when dealing with a force incomprehensibly powerful, just remember that behind ever feeling is the one who controls them. The real question is who's controlling yours?

Manuel "Jemini" Caride

Knowing is half the battle

“Knowing is half the battle”

(Gem·i·ni·an (j m -n n, -n -). n. One who is born under the sign of Gemini)

Although today I understand just how much of a Geminian I really am it hasn’t always been that way. I became intrigued with Geminian about 10 years ago while at the library sifting through astrology books trying to understand what was what in this life. Yeah I know a little deep but sometimes when all sounds stops and motion is still just for a millisecond the question crosses our mind, weather we hear it in plan sound or just in thought, why things are the way they are?

After reading a brief introduction of what a Geminian is I was beside myself. I couldn’t believe it, it was as if I was reading a book about me, the me that was deep inside, this book knew things about me that only I would know so for a moment I was nervous and excited, confused and just beside myself. And just like that my world changed I was determined to find out if anything what this meant for me and how can it be so accurate, like a typical Geminian. I was intrigued with what I found I decided to do a “sign test”.

I sat down and wrote a list from left to right about my personality, things only I would know about me for example my likes and dislikes, my good traits and my not so good traits (We all have them), what makes me tick and what makes me toc. After the list was done I took the day printing and reading (again from work) pages and pages of what the world thought the traits of a Geminian consisted of.

I spent the next few days doing a “similarity check” on all of the print outs, pulling information that was found on each listing, basically cross referencing the “facts”. Almost determined to find the opposites in the “traits” (typical Gemini). After creating a “MASTER LIST” I then pulled out my list from which I created about myself and held it against the “MASTER LIST”, and to my surprise the similarities where unbelievable I match the “MASTER LIST” 99.9%...99.9% folks.

That was the moment I decided I was who I was supposed to be. I think sometimes it’s healthy to take time to determine if the person you are is who you are supposed to be or if you’ve become a shell of influences caused by the life we live, the people we know and the one’s who raised us. In the back of our minds way deep in our subconscious we never forget who we are but It’s crazy what we go through without knowing to discover what we already know. So why does it take so long to find who we are, when who we are was never lost to be found?

Thursday, April 7, 2011 Manuel “Jemini” Caride

Take the damn advice

As I'm sitting here and typing I'm actually curious as to what the he%$ I'm doing. I really can't put my finger on tomorrow because it's becoming more and more like a blur to me. Maybe it's because I'm away from my family so long or that I've never been with so much "free time" before. What ever it is I've never felt so beside myself like this and it freaks me out. D always says "don't worry about Manny it'll work it's self out”. Those words, oh those word "Don't worry about it" burn my ears. I understand that some things you can't control and worrying is an empty way to use your time but I act instinctual and sometimes I feel that if I don’t worry then who will. The funny thing is that I totally agree with him, come on you don't spend 28 years with that many sisters and learn how NOT to worry. Ok, ok I do have a confession, though it chills me to the bone to say this but could it be the reason I get so discouraged by those words is because ultimately I know that not worrying is in fact the only solution. (As I laugh in my head) Why is it that we feel more comfortable "not worrying" when we decide it's OK "not to worry"?